January was fairly uneventful but toward the end I had a nasty bout of pneumonia. It was gross. I wasn't able to keep much down and it took a lot out of me.
February I was in a virtual hit and run accident. The guy left the scene but returned. He left because he didn't speak English. He had no license, no insurance, admitted to speeding, running a red light and not even seeing me. :( He got several tickets but my pinky was slightly broken and my car was totaled. I was stupid and underinsured so - I'm left with every ounce of responsibility. I bought my cousin's car for $1200 and it's set me financially off track. Not to mention it has over 200,000 miles so it's a cash machine. SIGH.
A good note was on February 3rd Heather invited me on a road trip to Evansville, Indiana to see Bullet for my Valentine and Avenged Sevenfold. We were able to do some VIP activities and it was fun but a bit rushed as we wanted close up at the show. We were able to get front row on Zack's side so the night was long but fun. I'm definitely glad we went. I really had a blast.
March 2018: March 3 I saw a long time musical hero of mine, Jonny Craig. I took Jen, Heather, Charlie and Ally because I wanted them to see what I thought would be a fun show, but emotionally I was quite sure I wouldn't be okay given how much I love and admire him. I couldn't afford his VIP package so I was kind of whining about it before the show and someone said "There he is over there" and pointed to a table. So I hesitated slightly not wanting to violate his time/privacy but damn it, he's been "there" for me so much so I hated to but had to intrude. He was humble as I told him all that his music meant to me and then I asked if I could get a pic with him and he said something to the gist of "Since I do a VIP I don't do other meet & greets until after the show but please find me after." I totally respected that. Went back up where Heather held down my 1st-ish/2ndish row spot and we weathered through several bands who I couldn't care less for. No disrespect as they all mean something to another fan but me? I had tunnel vision. He was all I could see or hear or at least all I wanted to. He joined Kyle Lucas for their duet of I Still Feel Her (part 5) so that helped me get through easier. His set - I was just lost as he didn't play but 2 of my favorite favorites so I was relieved as I cry during most of my favorites because they hold a place or event I've recovered from to me and I feel like I go through them again. Still I was moved by the performance as his voice does the equivalent of a thunderstorm to my nerves. It lets me feel peace for even a few minutes and at times I even am able to forget whatever pain I'm having. Stupid, I know. I can't explain it. The pain obviously isn't gone but it's less of a focus. SO anyway toward the beginning of the set he did grab my hand for a few moments and held it. I had to later hear confirmation to make sure I didn't imagine that but apparently Ally & Charlie screamed, so... I could write for days upon days and just blabber but I'll move along. Heather and I re-met up with Jen, Ally and Charlie and when they were all together I bolted to go find him. There were 3 lines forming and 2 were in front of him and it looked like the other was for merch but - I'm not incredibly patient and I needed to be near him so within a minute I was directly in front of him. So we hugged and he said he was glad I came to find him. He advised we take a "silly" picture together and we did and then we were just talking about being healthy and taking care of ourselves because we've both had life or death issues despite different situations. Then he held my hand and said "Listen, you have to take care of yourself always. If you don't, there'll be no one to support me and we need each other." I was and am even crying thinking of it. I promised, we hugged again and then I rejoined my family and broke down for a bit. It was a night I will forever be grateful that I went. I absolutely love that man with all of his faults. He remains my favorite singer and my favorite human outside of my close friends/family.
March 13 Jen, Heather and I headed to our 3rd Motionless in White show in Columbia MO at the BlueNote and I am so happy I'd bought the VIP tickets for Heather's bday because for so many reasons we'd have regretted not going. This was our 3rd MIW show. The 1st was with Little Miss Nasty and In This Moment at the Pageant on June 28, 2017. The 2nd was at Pops October 20. Heather bought us VIP tickets for my bday. So this VIP was fun as the other was and being in VIP we got front row. The show at the BlueNote was with Like Moths to Flames, Ice Nine Kills and Every Time I Die. The other groups were cool but I'm usually just anxious for the headliner esp with MIW since they put on such a great show. It was as great as always. Knowing now that Devin would leave the band, I'm glad we did VIP. I will feel his loss during Warped Tour as he's the only real artistic musician in that band. He doesn't just play bass, he's actually a performance art piece and I'll miss that level of devotion and his ability to get guitar picks to me when I ask. (THANKS for nothing Ryan ;) ). I see nothing else in my planner.
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